Backdated: June 10th, 2:24am - A very drunk network post

[onteamdyson]

yOU KNOW WHAT SUCKS? like. i mean. okay that waS a f engeral. question. don't like.
f you if you say vaccuums liMke some kIND o f smrtaASS. im gonna tell you. So listen the fridge up!

men. men suck. all men. zero exceptions.

they are LYING LIARS that LIE? and you trust them an D THEY JUST>? they just leave? and they breaK YOUR entiRe hearT?!?! and the Y aRENT EVen worth SHIT! ok? they warent worth SHIP! so like. dont even lose spilled milk over them and

stfuff.

becAuse even when you

if you donT even fall for them but you just need them? they arent there! you'R e just on y o ur own! so dont even trust anyone!

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[notblayde]

[Ding ding ding! He's just... Really bad at human interaction.

He relaxes as she comes back. Did he do something right? Or is this just pity? There's always such a fine line... But either way, Matt accepts it, gently wrapping his arms around her shoulders again.]

I just... I dunno, thought it'd be relateable. [But now he seems embarrassed. Stupid. But... He listens. He shuts up and he listens to Kenzi. And he realizes what she's lost, and his hands drift around her, one down to rub her shoulders and one up, to stroke her hair. It actually hits him hard - He actually... Gets it, now.]

I'm sorry, Kenzi. [It's not much, but it's all he can muster... And it's genuine. Maybe because he understands.] Being alone here is... [He stops for a moment, loosening his hold on her and just exhaling.] It's hard.

[onteamdyson]

Yeah. It sucks.

[Losing Bo hadn't hit her that hard because she'd still had Rumlow. Then she'd had Jefferson. She still has Jefferson, but who the fuck knows where he is right now and Eliot can't deal with all her bullshit on his own, he's just as broken inside and doing the best he can. Then there's Bucky who tries but also has his own shit. Peter, way too young to be here. She has all of them, but when it comes down to it, she doesn't really have any of them.

Does Matt have anyone? She never sees him being social on his own. He talks about losing an entire PLANET and doesn't even try to reach out-- ... except with her. Literally. And he can't even talk to her because she's shitfaced and loudly whining about her own stupid problems.

Maybe it's the way he strokes her hair, or maybe it's just the fact that she's starting to realize Matt isn't as okay as he seems. The reason why doesn't matter as much as the fact that she's tilting her head up to look at him again. Really look at him.

And then she kisses him.]

[notblayde]

[Drunk as she is, she's right. Matt doesn't really have anyone except for her... Which makes the next part of this incredibly difficult. Matt's hit with conflicting feelings the second her lips meet his.

In an instant, he knows it's what he's been wanting for far too long. His chest and belly swell with butterflies, his fingers catching in her hair. There's so much of him that wants to hold onto this moment forever and to never let go. In so many ways it's a huge relief, knowing that there's a part of her that does feel this way for him. That he's not just imagining it, not just prying it apart between the lines because he's so desperate for it or because some horrible false memories are plaguing his thoughts.

Another thought creeps into his mind as he holds her, as he returns the kiss so carefully. Something that has him pull away just enough to break contact, enough to make room to breathe.]

We can't - Not... Not like this.

[She's not in her right mind. She wanted him over for... Help? Not for this. It'd be taking advantage of her, and while he really - Fuck, he really wants to hold her and kiss her and touch her, it wouldn't be right. Not like this. Not right after she was decrying men just a few minutes ago! Not when she was just pouring her heart out about her fucking ex! Murdering people! Fuck. He can't... Make out with her on the lawn after she's admitted she's terrified of her fake ex husband hunting her down or something.

He couldn't ask to paint a bigger target onto the both of them.]